Thursday, October 8, 2009
Hello. Today's thursday and my exams start tomorrow. I suddenly feel overwhelmed by a whole bunch of emotions. There's confusion, anxiety, sadness and excitement. Confusion because I feel that a friend is purposely avoiding me, ignoring me even. Am I so irritating? Or did I do something wrong?
Anxiety, because I'm starting to feel that I haven't studied enough, haven't revised enough. I don't think I'm ready to take the exams yet. I start to think, maybe, just maybe, I'm too overconfident. What makes me think that I can ace this exam with the amount of preparation I've done so far?
Sadness because I missed out on today's mugging session at expo with 6C. Why did I even get my hopes up? Tomorrow's the exam, how in the world am I going to be allowed to go?
Excitement because I can't wait till the exams are over, then I'm free. However, if I should fail, what am I to do?
Also, I realise that while writing this, no one's ever gonna come to my blog and even see this. Maybe edwin, but never yj, jm, wx or even 2H people. I doubt they even know this place exists, or maybe they just don't want to see it. Maybe I should just stop blogging altogether. No one will ever miss me here. Haiz. Look at edwin's blog and you'll see the difference. Sad case.
Free me from the chains of fate, for I have lived a lie not worth living.
Forbidden At3:22 PM
